There is an upside and a downside to songwriting. Writer's block is nasty. Often times, you can write some good snippets of things, but your brain isn't organized enough to follow through with the rest and you end up assuming what you have is crap. Which is why it's good to save all of your pieces no matter how bad you think they are.

Then there are times that you can write and you feel really good about what you're doing. Inspiration sets in and you get excited and you want to share it with the world. Be mindful of becoming too attached to your work though because there can always be room for improvement.

There are also times when you can keep writing.... I mean that it becomes a distraction to your daily life because that's all you can think about doing. Even if it is just a piece here or there. My recent attempt to sleep was disrupted by the need to play guitar. I then ended up opening my notebook and low and behold there were some old lyrics I had been working on from last semester(probably in class). Immediately, I had the chords lodged in my brain, my fingers on the strings and the words escaping my lips. Then I needed a writing utensil. I had no intention of writing at this hour as I have class in the morning. However, half an hour later, I have a song.

The general concept is wondering if there is other life "out there" and not wanting to be the only one who feels that way or feels alone in the universe. Way left field for me. Maybe even out of the park, down the street and around the corner!

I'll work on getting some snippets of videos up later of some of these new works so you can enjoy the torment they sometimes impose upon my life. Even though I do enjoy it, sometimes it's nice to be a bit more constructive with other things in life... Like homework!

I'm certainly not having a shortage of inspiration lately. I've been experimenting a lot more with my vocal abilities as well as my guitar playing and I am having a lot of fun with it all. I finally put some lyrics to that guitar part I had and I am pretty satisfied with the outcome. However, it is necessary that I do not become attached. In the end, things change, and that could quite possibly be for the better. I am only here to nurture it along until it blooms into something beautiful and captivating. That doesn't mean that it can only bloom once.

Not sure what to make of the incoming snow as of yet. Last time it was barely anything by the time it reached us. I will just have to wake up early and see. I'd actually like to go in and get my test done and over with, but I wouldn't mind at all taking the extra time to study as I had computer difficulties. Yes. CIS major and I had issues. I ended up ditching Vista as it gave me too much of a headache and moved onto 7.

Maybe there will be celebration with lasagna this weekend...

Due to circumstances out of my control the show has been cancelled. However, I am working diligently to make it up to everyone and have a performance elsewhere later this month. Thank you for your patience.

I've pretty much finished the basics on a new song. I'm still not entirely certain on the bridge, but I played around with some vocal ideas and capabilities I never thought I had before. The results should come out really cool. I'm not sure if I want more of an instrumental intervention on the bridge. I'll figure that out later at some point. I might give it a go on the 3rd at Beemer's if I'm feeling saucy.

Home work is going well. Did a lot of reading and watched a video a few times. Now I have to go back, watch it again, answer some questions and google some stuff. Fun-fun. Oh yeah, I can't forget accounting.

I'm currently inspired to play the guitar and write though nothing much has evolved. I have a few samples and pieces of things but I'm happy with that none-the-less. Other than that, my stomach has become oddly upset and I do hope it's not the bug that has been going around. In the event, I am grabbing a high stress B vitamin with C and downing plenty of water. I should probably take it easy with food and opt for some soup with lots of vegetables.

Other than that, I think some tea and a relaxing evening is in order. Homework will have to be finished tomorrow. I may retire early for the evening, I'm not yet sure. I had intentions of watching Bones this evening, but we'll see how I feel.

So tomorrow starts an actual full week of classes. I'll be able to get into the groove of things officially and get use to going to bed earlier. I've got my favourite programs already set up for recording on the DVR so I don't have to worry about missing them if they're on late. I managed to get all of my homework done that is due this week, partly thanks to Tray who helped me figure out what I was doing wrong on my accounting homework. If I have the time and don't get too bogged down on Monday with assignments, I may try to skip ahead a bit which will require asking what the assignments are going to be in some classes or asking them to be posted.

I'm contemplating packing a lunch for tomorrow. Sometimes I just like to make something myself because I know what I like to eat or I'm in the mood for something particular.

Those lyrics are still illuding me, so I will be patient and let them continue to form out there in the universe and hope that they will be pulled into my brain in some sort of orderly fashion.

Not only did I work on homework, but I got some strength training in this evening and I am sore and exhausted. I'm not fairing too well in accounting already and it's only chapter one. I am somehow off by $1,000 and while I stare at the sheet and rewrite and rework everything along with looking at notes and examples in the book, I can't figure out why as of yet. I asked my friend to aid me tomorrow in a bit of tutoring so I can get on the ball. It's difficult for me. This isn't a puzzle where I can take all of the pieces and fit them together to create the picture or a 3-D object. While that may seem somewhat visual or spacial, I must admit I am a very kinesthetic learner. I do much better with hands on material than looking at a book and trying to figure out problems.

I've been hearing some good things from friends and fans about the Dope Show and Drive and I have to give you all a big THANKS, because I really appreciate the input and I'm very glad you enjoy the tunes.

I am currently working on a new tune at home which is completely devoid of lyrics. I can assure you I have the entire song mapped out musically via the guitar, but as for melody and lyrics forget it. This is something that hasn't happened in a while. In fact, it brings me back to the song Gravity. I had originally written the guitar part first and just assumed it would be a classical-type of piece. I think where I am having the most trouble with this song is that musically, it is very moving on a emotional scale and I'm not exactly sure how to captivate such a feeling and in what perspective. Is it a love song? A song about heartbreak? Is it a song about other worlds? It feels like it's trying to inspire something.... At first I was inspired to write about some sort of relationship between space and time and inter-dimensional travel. Yes, I am not kidding you. I thought of trying to toss the idea around that anything is possible if you believe it to be and if you work hard enough for it. We will see what happens. I don't exactly have time anymore to continue reading scientific theories with classes. Maybe I can just deal with what I've read up on and see what becomes of it.

Oh yes, I am keeping my migraines in check now. Some of you whom are close may have known me to have a problem with this. Any migraine sufferer knows how much they suck! Anyway, I finally went and saw a specialist, got on a better medication to keep them at bay and it was nice to hear that "I'm in control". If anyone has heard my song Drive, you'll understand why that can be such a meaningful line. There may be many aspects of your life that you may not realize that you let slip right out of your hands and just don't do a damn thing about or are too afraid to. That's why it's important to seek these out and learn how to take control of them. Kind of like standing on your feet for the very first time and taking your first step forward.

I should probably head to bed now. The sun comes up earlier and earlier.